I'm tying to really crack down on this whole 'acting as a career' thing. let me tell you. not coming to me as easy as the whole 'acting' thing. nor am i nearly as passionate about writing cover letters and formatting my resume and interviewing as i am analyzing scripts and developing characters and playing. I would just make movies with my friends for the rest of my life if I thought i could survive on peanut butter and saltines. but we all know how much i like to splurge on things like ramen noodels and chef boyardee. oh, and rent. I'm left with 2 choices. Finding a rich husband, or an agent. Honestly in this city i don't know which is going to be harder. Luckily, there are books about how to find an agent (that i trust way more than that stupid millionaire matchmaker woman who just tells women to straighten their hair and not talk about anything interesting or funny or smart). Last week, I spent a couple of hours at borders doing research, then finally bought a book called "how to act and eat at the same time." it was $20, which wasn't a great start. there goes my weekly budget for food, toilet paper and contact solution. thanks, book. however, it is super informative and well written. and it confirms everything i learned in my theatre auditioning class in college (thank GOD for rob roznowski. my hero and soulmate) which is a really comforting feeling. but there's so much i don't know about the business side of acting in film that makes me want to cry. in fact, i have cried reading that book on the subway. twice. cross my heart and hope to die. despite its overwhelming--ness, i would recommend this book to my fellow actor friends pursuing careers in film/tv/commercials in either NYC or LA. I just recommend reading it half a chapter at a time with a box of tissue and a glass of wine by your side, and a supportive friend on speed dial.
i also recommend to myself finding one story to include in my blog that doesn't contain me crying or having an anxiety attack or being a huge baby. that can't be attractive to potential rich husbands. i'm gonna make that my goal this week; do something fun and/or funny that reminds my loyal readers that i'm fun and funny, again. or... for the first time.
so. acting. career. get on board, friends. its coming in a big way. i would think. at some point.
can i un-fire my manager?
can i find an agent to find me an agent?
I"m gonna try to just remain positive. win over the hearts of producers? i can totally do that. old men love me. impress directors with my fabulous acting abilities? piece of cake. I'm a fabulous actor. Schmooze casting directors. schmooze is my middle name. i can wine/dine/69 with the best of them. not to mention... the jugs. no body in their right mind would turn these away. so i've got that going for me. which is nice.
now i just need to get my foot in the door. turns out, not as simple as it sounds. so i will spend millions of dollars and hours sending my resume and headshot and reel to every agent this side of the hudson. which sounds like zero fun. but i guess it'll be easier than going back to school for... well... i'm not good at anything else. so i guess thats not even an option.
stay motivated
stay focused
stay strong
go the the gym
As your body grows bigger your mind grows flowered it's great to learn cus knowledge is power!
dammit. already failed at the whole focus thing. see! i told you this was hard!
the motivation to be an actor has never faltered or failed. hence my upcoming talent show with actor/roommate jared f. shirkey. motivation also exhibited in my willingness to perform a monologue to anyone with a willingness to stare at me for 2 minutes. seriously, just ask. i will perform any time, anywhere. loves it. its the business part of 'show business' that can suck my balls.
motivational quotes courtesy of Katie DM's facebook page:
"Thankfully, perseverance is a great substitute for talent."
~Steve Martin
"Helen Hunt is consistently uninspiring, so I get great confidence from that."
~Cole Escola
motivational quotes courtesy of my facebook page:
"When you perform you are out of yourself-larger and more potent, more beautiful. You are for minutes heroic. This is power. This is glory on earth. And it is yours nightly."
~Agnes de Mille
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom."
~Anais Nin
and lastly a motivational quote from a painting Emily got me for christmas last year:
“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow.'”
~Mary Anne Radmacher
I'm not writing these quotes as advice for you or because i think you'll like them, my dedicated blog readers. i'm writing these down (um... typing them out?) because it is your responsibility to remind me of this when you see me crying on the J train.
or, you can find me rich husband. or a corporate sponsor. the choice is yours. 1,2,3... ggggoooooOOOO Bayside!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Lucky you! I've decided that my true calling is no longer acting, but MATCHMAKING!
ReplyDeleteBut really. Yes, let's keep each other motivated. It's hard. I have a box of file envelopes that I bought in 2006 that is only half gone. Awesome!
I enjoyed this entry thoroughly.
ReplyDeleteAlso, if my quotes end up motivating anyone, that would be incredible.
I love that you suggest wine and tissue to read that 'acting whilst eating' book. I basically have to self-medicate to get through "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway".
Also, I think we should start a campaign together . . . next week. Titled "Corporate Sponsor 2010". This is an out-branching of my best friend from high school's idea, originally titled "Manhunt 2010". Essentially, they will be the same concept, but ours will have a more professional name, clearly on account of our overt professionalism.
Keep on with the energy & enthusiasm! :]
Go Lady, Go! WE CAN DO IT, Damn it. With your jugs I really don't know how you're NOT famous yet, I mean, just look at them. Miss and love you. Keep on keeping on Jessie Spano, just lay off the caffeine pills. ;)
ReplyDelete"Thanks, book." lol
ReplyDeletefor once I didn't comment on the tags. Full of surprises, this one.