if its gonna be at all its gonna be with you

That title will probably have nothing to do with my actual blog. i just like that song. I'm feeling slightly ADD today. and like i'm coming down with some sort of cold. or maybe its just because my room was pretty cold last night (damn no control of the heat in my apartment and a wall of windows in my bedroom) and i usually wake up with a sore throat if that happens. On second thought... its probably ADHD.

Too ADHD for paragraphs. or even complete sentences. so list it is...

* I filmed until 1am on Friday, and still decided it was a good idea to head into the city to meet up with some friends. i was right. it was a good idea. i like my friends.
* On Saturday morning i took a shower at Gregs place when i showed up to set. i thought that was funny. I generally shower before i get somewhere, but i realized why wake up any earlier than i have to when i can just show up and shower while Greg and Jeff are setting up the shoot for the day?!?
* During filming on Saturday I fell asleep no less than 3 times. we got done at about 9, so i had a drink with Greg and Jeff, then bridget told me to come downstairs for a drink since she lives in the same building. so i went downstairs to say hi with my hair all gelled back, no make up on, and sweatpants, and then found out that she was having a party at her place. i felt like an idiot. but clearly don't really care. I ended up just borrowing clothes from her and doing my makeup and hair on her kitchen counter before heading out to Danielle's bday party.
* Drag Queens love me.
* Gay strippers also love me.
* Gay men in general seem to think i'm pretty fabulous.
* I will write more about filming at some point. just waiting for some uploadable pictures from the photographer.
* I appreciate honesty. i think its really really important.
* Yesterday, Roger and I were both in the kitchen, me baking cookies, him washing dishes, when he found a container that they had used for gravy on Thanksgiving that hadn't been rinsed out... or even emptied. He poured it in the sink, and we both had to pretty much leave the room because the smell was so atrocious. rancid animal fat. horrendous.Thank God for Matt who came over and cleaned it out of the drain. I feel like in this situation, most people, especially girls, would be really upset about something like that... but i thought it was really funny. it made me like my roommates more. to all be standing in the kitchen gagging and laughing... there's really nothing like that. I was a little worried that it would taint (haha. taint) my cookies. but they didn't taste at all like rotten gravy. they were just a little overcooked... i'll have to find someway to blame that on the boys, but have yet to figure out how.
* In the past 2 weeks, both of the male doctors i work for have asked me for advice on women. The 2 women in my office talk with me about boys and dating and relationships and babies on a pretty regular basis. But the boys in the office are finally starting to realize what a relationship guru i am (please don't laugh too hard at that last statement). Actually with both of them, i've said something along the lines of "i don't know, that sounds like one of those 'stupid girl' things to do. i have no idea what i would do if i had to put up with that." or "I dont know why women do that. i've never done anything like that, so i can't really help you out." To which my boss replied "you're more of a guy, arent you." i wasn't really sure what to say to that. yes???
* the first even semi-smooth transition of stories to happen in this blog post is about to happen.
* after a long conversation with matt on saturday night, he asked me "do you ever feel like one of the guys other than [realizes what he's saying]...everyday?" nope. pretty much just everyday.
* I'm glad I'm not a stupid girl. i think i'm a girlie girl in all the cool ways... i like shoes. i cry at sappy movies but don't let them dictate my expectations of love. i bake cookies for my friends' birthdays. i go shopping with the gays and pick out outfits for them. but, it seems like all the stupid girls have boyfriends, and i don't. do i need to be a stupid girl to ever actually have a boyfriend? i would like to think not. i would like to think that any guy that i choose to date would be cool enough to not want to date a stupid girl anyway.
* I'm a little sleep deprived (if you couldn't tell). On saturday night, i was talking to my friend Madalyn and had to stop mid sentence maybe a half dozen times to figure out what i was talking about because i had no recollection of what words had just come out of my mouth or what happened next in the story i was telling. insane.
* Despite the crazy loopyness of being so overtired these days, all i wanted to do last night was paint my apartment. if i found my roller... i probably would have.
* I'm supposed to be doing holiday postcards right now for work. i think that sounds really boring. also, a little bit of a waste of my college degree.
* My new goal is to have enough paying acting jobs to quit my day job. even though i really like my day job. how sweet would it be to JUST be an actor. or a trophy wife. but who are we kidding, i'm not really socially acceptable enough for that.
* "I don't even know what good anymore" -Andy Warhol's character in the movie "Basquiat"
* For some reason "Warhol" is a recognized word in my spell check's dictionary. but the possessive form is not.
* I don't understand skim milk.
* I don't know how much sushi is an acceptable to eat for lunch for someone of my size and stature.
* I really want to see the move "Brothers." Who would like to join me?
* I'm gonna try to start using the phrase "You betcha" more when people ask me really serious questions. its really never an appropriate response. I also want to start telling people to "grow up" more. always, always funny.
* Last night that AT&T commercial with Luke Wilson came on TV and I said in utter shock "WOW did he get fat!!!" and Matt looked at me and said "that's what you said yesterday when we watched it." I knew i had never seen that commercial, so I said very matter-of-factly "No i didn't." And Roger looked at me and said "yeah you did. when you were watching Glee." matt said "you even said it in the exact same way." who knew?
* I'm proud of myself for out-crazy-stream-of-consciousnessing Katie Della Mora.
* Just found out filming for tonight is canceled. so do i pick up a paint roller on my way home? or do i cook a nice dinner for myself then play the piano? or go straight to bed before i become anymore crazy than i am right now. I'm also really broke, and if i start painting one wall, i'm gonna wanna get more paint to redo my kitchen and bathroom too. can't.decide. wish i had a corporate sponsor for my life. hmmm... Tune in tomorrow to find out what i decided to do.

just re-read about half of this. its clearly not anything anyone will ever care about, nor is it even all that funny. Katie's blogging rule is she has to laugh at what she wrote at least once when she re-reads it. I"m probably just going to post it cus i'm too lazy to spend time rereading it.

peace out y'all.